differences

i always pay attention to the differences between
-my reactions vs. my boyfriend's
-my boyfriend's reactions vs my ex-boyfriend's

for example, i'm very conscious about not being tiresome, so i'll always ask if my boyfriend wants me to stay the night or come over. my boyfriend plays along and tells me that he does want me over but he clearly thinks it's silly of me to ask. Of course he wants to spend time with the one he loves, and in following that thought, he never asks if i want him to come over, he simply states when he is coming. However, sometimes i feel i would like to be alone...but that feeling always goes away as soon as he shows up to cuddle with me.

also, i'm conscious of not being a burden or not doing my fair share, so it takes some getting used to when my boyfriend says he loves to carry my bags or get me a cup of tea. i love that he's so gentlemanly, and i enjoy him making me feel like a lady, so i graciously allow him to help me in small ways even though it goes against what i'm used to. By now, my ex would have complained about me being lazy...but i suppose that's one of the reasons i've moved on.

still, it's so curious how happy it makes my man to do small things for me, but it is precisely this happiness that makes me love doing nice things for him. like, anal sex. just kidding. maybe.

sorry if it i sound a bit formal...i'm studying for finals and i've been reading ridiculously dense texts all day.