ps. thanks for the giftcard.

dear ex fiancee

i stayed with you for such a very long time because even after you changed for the worse, i held on to the image of you that i fell in love with far after reality stopped living up to that image.

now that things are better in your life, you expect me to believe that you've seen the light and have now learned after 5+ years everything i was trying to share with you along the way.

of course.

not only that, but you realize how fucking mean you were to me along the way and all the little ways you made me feel torn down and unwanted, as if i were ever a lesser person.

and you would take the chance to spend the rest of your life making it up to me and making me happy.

now, there are parts of me still shut away for fear that someone might smother them again and i have to keep in mind the light that only a good friend could shed on this subject:

"he's always kissing your ass when he can't have you, and just when you're back, you're shit all over again."

how accurate, in light of the fact that now you want to demonstrate that you are now the person i knew before, the one i waited for for so long. the one i hoped that would someday come back and make this love worthwhile.

please stop being so fuckin' nice. i don't need it anymore.